We haven't posted in awhile but I'll bring everyone up to speed. We are having a little girl due January 17th of 2015. I wanted a boy...I actually think during the ultrasound I was willing a penis into existence but I was wrong. A little girl! What the heck am I going to do with a girl? Well, shopping of course. And shopping is what we did. We experienced our first shopping trip for our family addition. I pretty much screamed at every cute outfit we found. It didn't take long for us to realize we were going to be broke if we didn't put stuff back. I don't know how Jordan was feeling but I was starting to see real life right before my eyes. I stayed awake that night just praying to God that I would be a great mother to her. Luckily, I have been surrounded by great mothers...my mom, my granny, my sister in law...all great mothers...great mothers to girls at that. This should be a piece of cake. Haha. I then immediately started having a slight panic attack. I was going to have to let this girl go one day. One day, she will head to school for the first time, or go to prom, or head to college, or heaven forbid get married when she's 40 or so! I saw her life flash before my eyes and she's not even born yet. So after breathing into a paper bag for a few hours I caught my breath. God would have never made this happen if He didn't think I could be a good parent. This is a gift...not a burden. And this is pretty much the best gift I could have received from the Good Lord other then my husband.
After the initial excitement of having a little girl started wearing off, we had to start preparing our lives for this. We were slowly going to have to start thinking about a nursery, car seats, clothes, bottles, and the whole birthing process we wanted to have. I have never felt more overwhelmed. But in that overwhelming moment...God keeps speaking to me. You are going to be fine. I am in you! You got this.
We made our first big purchase other then clothes for little miss. My friend Tawny has introduced me to the world of consignment. And boy is it amazing. We bought our entire travel system we have been wanting, in the exact color we wanted, from a big consignment sale this weekend. Saved probably close to $350. Walking out the door with that thing really hit me. In a few short months, a little human will be in that thing. Our little gift from God. OUR LITTLE GIRL! Another real moment in time. I still look at it and imagine how our lives are fixing to be rocked...big time! But praise the Lord for this gift!
Many couples struggle with infertility. And I love how this blog helps connect me with people who are losing hope or who have been in my shoes. Until next time....Many blessings friends!!
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