"My hope is based on a God who can do and will do the impossible."-Let Hope In

   There are many things in my life that I see as blessings. For starters, a forgiving and unrelenting God. I started my morning off being so angry. I was running late for class, I had been battling an earache so I haven't been sleeping well, and I could just feel the devil weighing on me. I literally got so mad because my printer kept getting jammed so I unhooked it and threw it across the room. All of this negativity just kept radiating over me. I had a major pity party. Poor Lexi...she is overwhelmed again. Poor Lexi...she overloaded herself again in school. Poor Poor Me!!! Why does God keep testing me? After composing myself (this took awhile) I was struck by a scripture. Isaiah 40:31-but those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint. I was suddenly in a much brighter mood. I made myself my own little personal God moment.

   Another blessing is our church. Everything about our church is something I craved for a long time. But mostly I craved a pastor that I could understand and that could preach in a certain way to make me get it. We started going to Crosspoint in Nashville a little over a year ago. Our Pastor, Pete Wilson, is not only an amazing Pastor...but a great writer. I have now read every one of his books. The one that I love the most is Let Hope In. This book came out around the time where I started feeling like God were starting to hate me. Ok...maybe not hate me but I was feeling very challenged in my faith. We had been going through infertility for over a year at that point and I just needed to feel God again. I felt so far away from Him and he was almost no where to be seen. I started reading Let Hope In and POOF...there God was. My Savior! "You can't breathe out what you haven't breathed in. Breathe grace." My problem was I wasn't turning to my faith how I should have. Instead, I was turning away. God gave me grace. This whole time, He has been there. Holding my hand. Breathing in and out with me. GRACE! SANCTIFICATION! Amazing Love!
   "My hope is based on a God who can do and will do the impossible." The farther we get into this infertility, the closer we are growing to God. We are growing closer to our small group...we are so blessed to know each of them. It is simply amazing the people God has placed in our lives through this whole journey.